I've grown. Not so much physically, but mentally.

However, i'm still lost. I try to figure out people, and who they are. And I get really close, but I understand now that people aren't test dummys. They have feelings, emotions, special needs that have to be taken into consideration in all cirumstances. And even though a lot of people understand that, they still continue to hurt people, without the slightest of empathy for them.

When people do this, they're effecting two people. The victim and themselves. They hurt the person by either betrayel of trust or something else. And they hurt themselves because inside them their leaving a small personal scar that they may or may not remember, but will always be there as long as one person remembers it. I've watched my friends be hurt my people, similar to how I was hurt. And honestly it breaks my heart to see myself in them. Watching my friends lash out at the ones they care about because of a girl. And it makes you wonder 'how could someone have this big of an effect on me?' 'why did she mean this much to me?' 'why aren't I over her yet?' First loves hurt, and believe you me, I know they do. Understand that people are cold, shallow and heartless. Not all, but a lot. And I wanted to thank those who helped me, they know who they are.

God, listening to Emery is depressing... lol

This is a post dedicated to two people, i'm pretty sure they know who they are...

Miasma comes out tomorrow... fuck yeah.

Well I have homework to do. The Odyssey is a bitch... Homer is a bitch... you epic writing, bearded bastard...

Currently Listening The Weak's End By Emery The Ponytail Parade see related

[I was told theres a miracle, for each day that I tried. I was told theres a new love that is born for each one that has died. I was told there'd be no one to count on when I feel alone and afraid. I was told if you dream of the next world you'll find yourself, swimming in a lake of fire.

As a child, I thought I could live without pain, without sorrow.
As a man i've found it's all caught up with me. I'm asleep yet i'm so afraid...]

Fuck Warped Tour... the only good part is that The Offspring are headlining but other than that most of the bands suck ass...

However Gigantour with Symphony X,  The Dillinger Escape Plan, Fear Factory, Megadeth, and the fucking infamous DREAM THEATER!

Now that is going to be siiick! I'm hella excited...

As for the rest of you I hope you all have a safe 4th of July! So be patriotic, burn your flags, smash your symbols, and excercise the Amendment to speak freely about how you feel. Also blow the shit out of something... and be safe...

¢¾Silas

Currently Gaming Halo 2 Multiplayer Map Pack By Microsoft Software see related

I'm sorry this is just too god damn funny!! I love Cheap Sex...

Emo Boy: 'Dear diary, my life is a complete fiasco.
The dashboard show is this weekend and I can't even fit
into my little sister's jeans anymore. My dad grounded
me cause he caught me in my mom's makeup again. He's
such a nazi. I wish i could just run away to somewhere
where people could understand me. I make out with one
guy at a show and I'm gay? Hello, it's the new millenium.
Ever heard of experimentation? I tried to cut my wrist
yesterday but some of the blood got on my pants, and I totally
freaked. Needless to say, they're ruined.'

For the past few years we've seen you around
pretentious art fags taking over my town
You're too mature to have any fun
Your trend in a year will be over and done
Your hair isn't a bowl or any shape
You're acting like you're gay just to get laid
and a white belt holds up your pants
you're too mature to fucking dance

FUCK EMO!
we aren't dead
and in a year there will be none left.

Emo Girl: 'mmm, emo.'
Emo Boy: 'you bet your sweet ass it's emo. ooh, doesn't it
just make you wanna cry?'

Repeat Chorus

Emo Boy: 'anyway, my life is just a black abyss. I'm up to 98
pounds now and i don't know what to do. I don't know,
maybe i'll join the navy.

Currently Listening Launch Off to War By Cheap Sex Smash Your Symbols see related